My Questionable Behaviour

I cannot put into words

these feelings trapped inside,

maybe if I could

they might finally subside.

No matter what

I try to write

nothing comes together

that even starts to sound right.

Explanations for

my questionable behaviour

only adds fuel to the belief

I am acting like a dictator.

Afraid to let

anyone get to close

in case the truth may emerge

in questions they pose.

If only I could find

the words I am looking for

then they may understand

what it is I am trying to ignore.