Self hatred

Sometimes, it all feels too much

What is my purpose?

What should I do?

Do I deserve happiness?

Or is it all in vain?

Will I die by someone else’s hand?

Or my own?

I know what I’m doing to myself. I know it isn’t good or healthy. So why do I continue? Am I simply not worth to be happy or proud of what I have accomplished?

Times like these are an ocean of self-hatred. Waves of harsh criticism throw me down under. My knees are buried in the sand. I keep losing grip. Now, I’m just too tired to get up and fake being happy.

I’m drowning. And I’m not fighting back. I don’t know what to do .

5 thoughts on “Self hatred

  1. In spite of that, happiness is for you, always

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