Confessions of a First Time Mom

I feel like I have no idea what I’m doing. 

But, then again, I’m sure every first time parent (mom or dad) feels that way. Still, it’s good to admit it, I think. Because if you admit it, then you can start asking for help. And, it’s really true what they say: “it takes a village.”

That’s one confession I think all first time parents understand. Aside from that obvious confession, though, I have a few others and I’m going to share them here.

Please don’t judge me. This is a safe space, right? Sharing is caring? We’re all in this together?

Either way, Here it goes. My first-time-mom confessions.

Note: I’m only a month into this whole thing, so this list may very well grow!

1. I have constant “mom guilt” 

I always feel like I’m not doing something right. This is different than the “I don’t know what I’m doing” feeling. This is the “I had a feeling I should have done this different… why didn’t I do this differently?”

For example, I went to a new moms’ luncheon the other day. It made me feel like a complete fool, let me tell you. All the other babies were in long sleeves and pants. My baby? Nope. She was in a short sleeved romper. Her legs were bare except for a pair of socks that didn’t even match her outfit! I definitely kept her wrapped up tightly in her blanket the entire time.

I should have put her in a different outfit. Why didn’t I? She has plenty! I knew it was cold.

I felt so horrible. More than anything, I was embarrassed.

2. But, it’s not always enough to make me do something

That brings me to my next confession, though. Just because I felt guilty and embarrassed for not putting my baby girl in a warmer outfit, that doesn’t mean that I went home and changed her right away.

Getting her in and out of those long sleeve/ long pants things is SO annoying! And changing her diaper when she’s wearing one of those? Forget about it! It’s a complete hassle! I’d much rather just wrap her up in a blanket and be done with it.

Basically, even if I feel a little bad, I still usually end up doing what’s easier. I mean, I’m still figuring all this out! I’m overwhelmed and pretty sleep deprived. Most days, I’m just happy she has clothes on. That’s a victory enough for me!

3. I heard you poop, Baby Girl… I’m just pretending I didn’t

I said it. It’s true. Judge me if you must. But, just because I heard my daughter poop (and believe me, you can hear it on the other side of the house; she’s not coy) doesn’t mean I’m going to run and change her diaper right away. Especially if she’s sleeping. I am NOT going to wake her up. 

4. I love to sit up and stare at you, but as soon as you wake up, I hate myself for not sleeping instead

Those quiet moments are so sweet and so fleeting. I try to enjoy them while I can. I love to just sit and watch her sleep. It warms my heart and makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

But, the second her eyes open… I instantly feel a ripple of anger shimmy through me. “Why did I do that? I should have slept! Now I’m going to be up forever trying to get her back to sleep!”

It’s a constant struggle between “I want to soak up this time as much as possible” and “I’m going crazy from sleep deprivation and when did I shower last? and oh, goodness, I’m hungry, why didn’t I eat while she was asleep?” 

5. I keep saying, “I know I’m going to miss these times one day” but I don’t always believe it

It’s just one of those mantras that new parents say– “I’m going to miss this one day.” But, will I really?

I’m sure I will (maybe?). But some days, I fantasize about the day she sleeps through the night and can feed herself and go to the bathroom by herself and… well, you get the picture.

I do love taking care of her and snuggling her and being her everything. I know she won’t need me forever… and I’m kind of thankful for that.

6. I am so crazy in love with you, Little Girl, that I don’t think I know how to function without you anymore

Was there even a time before I was a mom? I can’t remember… She’s become my entire life, my whole world. And I’m completely okay with that. I’m no longer me. I’m “Norah’s mom.” And I wear that title proudly.

Am I Alone?

Am I the only parent who feels/ does these things? Do you have any parenting confessions to share? Let me know I’m not alone! 

To follow along with me and Norah on our journey, check our my blog at miniminimalistmama.com!

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10 thoughts on “Confessions of a First Time Mom

  1. Beautifully written. IMHO, as a mom, you probably know best. You only have the example of several billion mothers before you who managed to bring up their children just fine. Each in a different way.

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    1. Thank you! And you’re right. Every baby is different with different needs and every mom has their own way of fulfilling them. Thank you again for your comment! 😊

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  2. 3-6 I’m definitely with you. You quickly learn that young babies can “finish” pooping the minute you change them, they poop again. I always waited. I stopped stalking my babies while they slept and hustled myself to sleep because lack of sleep truly made me delusional. Babies are awesome and even when you have more kids you still screw up. As long as baby is safe and happy then you are on the right track.

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    1. Good to know I’m not the only one! I’m definitely trying to work on sleeping when she sleeps… it’s getting easier the more tired I am!

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  3. You are not alone!!! Mom guilt is super real but long sleeves are a struggle 😂😂😂 I’m not sure anyone actually sleeps when the baby sleeps…because staring at their little faces is so fun!

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    1. Long sleeves and long pants! Changing diapers is such a headache with pants. Haha thanks for your reply!! 😊

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  4. First time mom-ing with ya! This is not an easy journey but it’s super rewarding. Definitely wish I slept more rather than staring at this tiny amazing human that we’ve created but I would be sleep deprived for many more days because this love is like no other.

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    1. It definitely is amazing how much a parent can love a child. I never understood it before! I guess it’s one of those things you can’t understand until you experience it for yourself. 😊

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      1. So true. Honestly I really wasn’t a “kid person” I always went the opposite way lol but out of nowhere I just got baby fever and was like wow.. Hasn’t my thought process changed!

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      2. Haha I was the same way!!! 😆

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