You know you’ve had enough when things that were of huge importance to you suddenly seem meaningless, like you can live without them and their presence or lack of makes no difference.
You don’t care whatever happens anymore.
People can talk about you and it’ll just be like the droning voice of the news reporter talking about deaths and bombings that you’re so accustomed to hearing about.
People can say to your face what they think and momentarily you might get affected but you easily wipe the memory of them out the next day.
You’ve had enough when you know your words won’t have any effect anymore because you’ve spoken countless times and you might as well have spoken to a turtle or a hog.
The time to be hurt is over, how many times did you stand up for yourself and spell out loud and clear that you deserved better? that you at least wanted the kindness you so willingly bestowed upon them?
how many times did you fall asleep drenching your feathery pillow and wishing you could materialize in a time and place where no one you knew existed?
Your problem is you cared too much.
You loved too much.
You sacrificed much too.
You expected all that in return.
But the caring nature isn’t instilled in everyone.
Not everyone has the gift of exchanging positions, placing themselves in your shoes.
Most people do not want to think, do not want to burden themselves with feeling your pain.
You are alone.
Once you realize this, you grasp the reality of your situation by its antlers and gradually learn to say no.
You become meaner, you become a lover of yourself.
You guard your feelings and shut out people who attempt to step on your feet with their inconsideration and demeaning harshness.
You hurt people back when they hurt you.
You get rude, you curse, you scream.
You draw walls around you and draw down your iron gates,
and you stand watch at your tower,
guarding and sniping down anyone who seems like a threat to your stronghold.