STITCHED HEART

And they say you’ll learn to trust again,

you’ll learn to loosen the bonds of your heart.

But how can I forget all the time I spent

knitting my wounds closed?

As much as the dagger that you sent wheeling into my heart hurt,

those stitches hurt as hell too.

Because each stitch I knitted carried with it a memory of us together,

the places we’d been,

the songs we’d listened to,

the friends we’d shared,

the streets we’d walked too.

I could still hear, see, taste and feel you ages after,

and everytime I got to getting over you,

I’d hear a laugh that sounded like you.

So please don’t tell me to trust again,

please don’t tell me to fall in love.

I don’t want to hate another name,

I won’t take chances with those daggers,

because to me you’re all the same.

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15 thoughts on “STITCHED HEART

  1. “I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together”… Marilyn Monroe

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    1. Pain teaches you to appreciate what you once had and hold onto it, treat it right, if you are given the chance to hold onto it once more.

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  2. I wish you the very best in your time of healing. I can relate to every word you wrote, I have been there too. Time does heal . One day there will be people in your life that you can learn to trust. Miracles do happen . xo

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    1. I am learning that as time goes by, what I hope is a miracle, and a good turning, is gradually falling in place. Thank you for your words. We are all sharers of similar pains.

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  3. I wish you the best! Healing takes time. Do what is best for you! Good luck.

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    1. Thank you, and yes, each day brings more lightness to my heart.

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  4. Sad! I know of the pain you speak. But moving forward with what feels good is the best, easiest way through. ❤️🦋🌀

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    1. I’m looking back at the time that’s passed since I wrote that post, and as you rightly said, it does get better with time.

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  5. There is all the pain that comes with unrequited loss- especially if the one sending the pain has none of his own, or has managed to stuff it all, so the one he hurt can’t see his pain easily. I’m glad things are getting better for you. It means he’ll never win.

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    1. I don’t think there’s a exactly a winner or a loser here.. just more experience and lessons gained.

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  6. Wonderfully poignant!

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    1. Thank you. 🌸🌸

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  7. I hear you! It is extremely difficult to trust again, to be vulnerable again.

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    1. It’s as though hearts have memories of their own too.

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  8. Healing takes time. Sometimes very long. This resonates with the ‘ME’ of the summers of 2014 . You might not be the same person anymore as everything is a lesson learnt and your walls will be high since you won’t want to feel the sting ever again. But it will heal and each time something like this repeats you feel the sting a lot less with each time.

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